church and blogging from my phone. Ease excuse any typos...
I had the following thoughts while sitting here... Maybe I'm psycho -
the Senator and I are starting a family... I may be pregnant right now
as I type this blog post... Pregnant ladies what where your early
signs? I can't tell really annoying pms or early pregnancy symptoms...
My cycle isn't late yet but the only signs I have that it's coming are
tingly boobs, annoying nausea, extreme... Extreme... EXTREME
fatigue... Will I be a good mother? Can we afford a baby? We live in a
one bedroom apt... What will we do? I Interjected my opinion on my
mother today... (drama with her and my god-mom, K) should I have done
that? Will my mother and ever have a decent relationship? Will she
ever trust me as a mother does a daughter? Or is this a silly pipe
dream? Should I suck it up and take my random crochet lessons for what
they are? Is God pleased with my life? Me? My marriage? The way I
handle my finances? Ugh!!! What on earth am I here for?!?!?!?! I'll
never be "in" with the L crew (too old to rehash, if Velta is reading
she'll know) again... Face it, girl! You're better off on the
outside.. Just ask Delta!! Do my ministry head think I'm a flake/
slacker? I am seriously beginning to doubt my "self-starter"
abilities. I think I stole from my church? I got money from them to
get stuff for the college kids for the past Christmas... I didn't give
the change back yet. Can I really make a difference with my VA company
(www.consultkmg.com) what does my future hold for me, my marriage, my
career? People make me angry. Be an adult! I want my husband to run
for a political office... He would be so awesome! And would be a
wonderful asset to society! I feel like I want to do alot more but
right now today I don't have the energy to do it... I want to read my
bible more and know my scriptures better... I volunteered to be an
adjunct (kindoftalkedmyselfintoit) for one of our Judah U professors.
She has not co gaffer me, should I contact her? Why are MW's (lady at
my church) always sleepy? Bedtime?
24 reasons why I probably will never have alot of close friends:
24- only child syndrome, BAD!
23- selfish when it's inconvenient for others
22- sometimes I judge
21- easily irritated with complaining
20- the older I get the thinner my filter gets
19- I hate to do anything I don't want to do (I mean who does)
18- I love to receive but don't like to give all the time
17- I don't like it when my friends go thru issues and stay in their
issues too long
16- I will always continue to grow in Christ which means I strive for
righteousness and not foolishness!
15- disclosure begets disclosure. Period.
14- I can be sometimey, sometimes
13- I don't feel like being a friend, all the time... Sometimes
12- 12-2 are for the things I can't think of but others reading this
can think of
1- my friends will probably read this post and break-up with me as a
result
That is all.
sent from Kameaka's iPhone
www.ConsultKMG.com
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