Chronicles of Compromise Day2 Lesson2: The Tongue - a flame

This morning's meditation on Jm. 3:6b James is speaking about 'Controlling the tongue'. This is what vs. 6b says: "...It [the tongue] is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting your entire body. It can set your whole life on fire, for it is set on fire by hell itself." This is what the scripture meant to me: My tongue is a whole world of wickedness, corrupting my entire body. It set my whole life on fire, afterall, it is set on fire by hell itself. I can't tell you how I feel except to explain it this way. In the roughest times of my life, like now, "I know no other way", than to turn to the scripture.... and occasionally run away. Whether it whips me, or cradles me, it always gives me what I need, period. I was one who prided herself in "saying what I felt", no matter how YOU felt. i believed this was correct. I hated the fact that the Senator's family was so involved and hated the fact that they cared soooooo much about what was going on. "Why does it matter?" I would ask myself I talked bad about them and meant every word. I felt harsh feelings and thought harsh things... I was a terrible person. We even went to counseling as a result of my hatred. I'm growing though, and as you know, beginning a series in my life as a result of it. I don't know what flipped the switch... all I know is, my life can't, I mean CAN NOT be centered around me avoiding them and their love for my husband and I for the rest of my life. I heard it said plainly last night.... his family will always be there, no matter what I do! and no natter how loyal the Senator thinks he will be, i'll end being the one hurting in the end. If I love him, I can stay and fight to establish healthy boundaries within our family relationship. i mean, what do I have to loose?.... nothing! What do I have to gain? a sense of family I have never had before, I happy husband, and a pleased heavenly Father.

Trust God to order your steps when it comes to relationships. Trust Him enough to protect you. And trust Him enough to give you the proper emotions for every situation.