i'm "late", back in town, and useless fact #5

i'm "late"... yes, that's right... "l-a-t-e" and scared. my cycle has been on time for the past two years and i've been counting on my sick ovary (pcos) to keep my safe from children... scratch that to keep children safe from me for a while. I think I've gotten caught. I don't have any "symptoms" other than a missed period. The first day of the my last cycle was 1/1/10... today is 3/6/2010. the week before last I had some light pink discharge so I thought I was coming on... but nothing... not even a spot. It wasn't until around the 26 of Feb. that i realized that I had not gotten my period and the month was almost over. I gave myself until 3/5 to worry... well it's nothing, and I'm a bit concerned. I'm going to give it a couple of more weeks (3/21) to be exact (that was the last day of the last pd) and then take a test if nothing comes. I have not told the Senator yet only my girls V and D. V's excited and is already making plans. D, isn't quiet that excited... i'm with her. don't get me wrong, I'd love to have kids... but:
A) I still live with O
B) the Senator and I are in a delicate place in our marriage and I don't want to bring a kid into all that right now. I want us to love one another again. (not that we don't we're just in a rough patch)
C) We can't afford it right now (according to our financial plan we'll be ok by Oct., but... what about Dr. appt's and such)
D) I'm psychologically unstable... ithink... i'm worried i will suck at it. my mother always gave me to people for them to take care of me and the way my life is going right now i'll have to do the same (kindof). plus i'm not liking my in-laws right now, their nosy and controlling and I can just predict the drama.... and i just want MY OWN PLACE!!!!! i miss my space... i will never give up may own walls again.. i've certainly learned my lesson... my marriage is hurting so badly right now.
E) ?????????? ugh!!! ?????????? is this really what God wants for me? us?... if it is "this". (?)

i've gone over this in my head... i can't imagine why it would not show up... i've not been stressed not to the point of complete absence maybe late, but it's been an entire month... idk what to do... i'm kind of freaking out...

since last Sunday I've been out of town. I attended the Great Gathering in Colombia, SC. my girls V, D, and I had a blast. We worked and got a chance to play as well. it's always good when we can get together with one another. So much has happened since then... let's see... adventures in packing a Toyota corolla to the gills with over-sized luggage then four adults, adventures in almost being stranded in SC because apparently cash is not as good as credit, and adventures in just being young and married.

sorry I have not been keeping up with may useless facts. I fell off the consecration (lent) wagon hard. Wednesday night a caved and had a slice of NY style cheesecake, and since then I've had a small bag of UTZ potatoe chips a day and last night I had a glass of Chianti with apple pie a la mode... [don't judge me] I got back on the wagon tonight. I've made up my mind that I will fast for 40 days, so I've started over tonight.

useless fact #5 ~ my encyclopedia of useless information is in my car and my feet and legs hurt from being on them all day. so I've taken a fact from a different source...
If you have 3 quarters, 4 dimes, and 4 pennies, you have $1.19. You also have the largest amount of money in coins without being able to make change for a dollar.

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