Doozies cont'd Pt. II

Okay, so while i was on my blogging sabbatical, I went through alot of drama with the Senator's family... finally some normalcy with the "n-laws". I was so pressed to get outta here. The Senator and I gave up our lease (yes gave up!!!) to put an end to our financial drowning..... We got swept into trying to buy a home, and.. well, it got messy. I left my job to pursue my business and the n-laws got heated... they didn't want to support me, they wanted to support "us"... huh...what?!?! They think we should do this and not that and blah blah blah......

Needless to say, I was on the fast track outta here, and frankly didn't care of the Senator was with me or not... bad place, right?! Well, the dust settled and prayer ALWAYS changes things... I got down and dirty with God. Told Him all about my feelings, fears, anxieties, and just really began to trust Him and take Him and His word. Well, God changed my heart and what appeared to be my n-laws as well.... Now it's getting time for us to move and I think I'm having second thoughts.... I miss my own like you would not believe, but beginning to think, "can we handle this again"... I know we can, it's just gonna be a shock... I'm ready to get back to my own and do my own, and feel my own... I've missed it.

I told the Senator tonight that I didn't ever want to give up my own again... the next time... we put our heads together and fight through... nothing is worse than living on your own then surrendering it all for the sake of money.