mid-week brain storm = itching to go...

so since january, i.ve been working with new program in hopes that i
may eventually be moved from my current location to another. at first
it was an answer to a desperate cry for help, then it slowly turned
into the answer to all my prayers.. well obstacles re created to come
and when they do we're equipped to handle them whether we think we are
or not... i need to begin putting myself in a positio where ican begin
to navigate the instances in my life... i've got much i wanna do and
it's hard to get that across, or is it?! am i standibg in the way of
my own success or am i truly pushing for something that just isn't for
me. the docs i work for are bent on making me an fte, i don't want
that. they've got money for a pte so why not find out how much it
would cost to employee me as a pte, negotiate a contract and then i'm
done?! i mean, really isn't it that simple. i'll negotiate days i'm in
the office, transfer all files to electronic s their easily accessible
for everyone and set up shop at home and move forward. tis is rational
for me. i can't complete wat i want with 40/wk behind a desk... just
feel like i need to tak this chance. how else wil i know?